Time: The Grief Journey

It's been 29 years since I last saw his beaming face, splattered brown freckles, strawberry red/brown locs......my brother!

It's been 18 years since I last saw his beaming face, baby soft chocolate brown skin, faintly splattered freckles....my other brother!

It's sometimes hard to believe that so much time has passed between the both of them because I can remember our last moments together....so...vividly.....

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know just, how much I love you....please don't take...my sunshine...away...." I don't sing this song too often, but when I do, my lips smile, but my heart cries a little. Cries because of all the memories made with him and for the ones I've had to make without him (them). I know that I live a life a lot of my friends/family know nothing about in this area and in this sense. That makes the walk a little lonely sometimes. Lonely because what most of them have, whether truly cherished or not, I can't get back. #heartbreaking And that's one reason why I go a little harder on them to cherish their siblings. I remind them that life truly is as fragile as they think it is...and then some. Because honestly, it's something you almost can't even fathom....unless or until you have to!

I'm really not a cemetery type of person - never have been, not just when my siblings passed, so that place doesn't bring me a sense of peace nor closeness of them. Besides, I know better! :) I am truly grateful to be able to say that my memories of my siblings are fun-filled and laughter-filled. Fighting? Nah, not really. We really weren't 'allowed' to do that as children into adulthood. Some things were just a no-no in our home. I'm grateful for that too! It matters in life...and in death, too. Trust me, it matters! We left no words unspoken - I love you meant I LOVE YOU! *Last words I heard.....from both of them. #bittersweet

Always make sure that your last words are some of your best words...because you never really know when your last words....will be your last words. Yes, life is just that fragile! *Sleep tight, Gentle Giants...It's almost morning* xoxoxo